Dear Son

Dear Son,

You changed my life in a moment,
And I’ll never be the same again…

It’s been one month and 17 days since your birthday, anak – days that changed mommy’s life instantly. Your existence had caused unexplainable bliss and surprise, having you is really one milestone in my life as a woman. You are so dear to me, the moment I knew it was positive, my heart had celebrated and my gratefulness to the good Lord unceasing. All the labour pains when I gave birth were gone when I heard your first cry. It was the sweetest music I’ve ever heard…

I fell in love again, I knew. Your little face, the small lips, the very innocent eyes – I love them all. I’ll never tire looking at you, curious about every move you make, touching your little fingers, waiting for your rare smile. I remember the ob-gyne’s story when she did the cs operation. I didn’t know that I have asked ‘doc, kumpleto ba anak ko?’ when she showed you to me the moment you came out. That’s me anak, maybe just like other mothers, we wish a normal and healthy baby. God never failed me!

Most of the time you are asleep, while I take pictures of you. Mommy treasures every single moment with you, and it’s like that every moment that pass on is a memory worth to be treasured. I’ll keep these pictures so that you’ll see how you have changed day by day, you’ll know how big the shirts I have bought for you then.

My heart breaks when you cry so loud that I don’t know what made you so upset. I worry for things – are you hurt? Is there an ant right there? Hungry? I knew you cry every time you pee, and I thought you don’t want to get wet! I was so tense when I cut your nails for the first time, I was so afraid to hurt you if I do it without care. Thank God, I made it!

Your dad and I love you very much, son. I pray that we will be able to raise you well, provide all your needs, and teach you to become God’s servant. My heart is filled with wishes for your goodness. I love you and I will always stand by you…

Much love,
Mommy
April 8, 2011